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Saw my friend ah pee's blog today, hes like super emo. Everyone seems to be super stressed out by studying, exams and even napfa. Guess in singapore the only way up is to either be hardworking or smart. Is it the society today that makes us wanna move faster, do faster, outperform to shine? I guess it boils down to how you view life. I view life as a gift from God and when i die i will bring along with no treasures, no status, no power and no money. What is the worth of having the most money and yet lose the meaning of life. Thats why i view my faith as paramount importance. I have learnt much from it and discovered the sweetness in life that many around me cannot taste. Though it is tempting to lose myself in this world of materialistic wants and power, i have to remind myself that what i have is what God has given me. If not for his graciousness, i would have nothing. That is why sometimes when i dont feel like going to church as the devil is tempting me with sleep and making me weary, i have to remind myself that it is only right that i give 10 % of my all to my God. My time and my money and my worth.
He has not failed to bring me though tough times, assured me when i was unstable and provided when i was weak. How did he do that? He did that by giving me fellowship, friends who support you and pray for you. Friends who are not just there when things go well, but when things are downright shitty. I remembered the time when my grandma passed away, none of my classmates came, my teachers didnt come either, my neighbours didnt come but my church friends came. How important that moment was to me, when i saw them coming to the wake. My heart was filled with joy and praise, for i have seen who my true friends are. When i mentioned it to my classmates, many shunned the topic, this only brings me to regret why i have told them. But it was totally different when my church friends knew. They would gather around me and pray for me, with one heart. For the bible has written that when two or more people gather around and pray, the Lord is with them. This joy of being cared for, can only be described as love that has no boundaries. This is why i keep trying to get my non-christian friends to come for fellowship. To experience the love and care that is generous and overflowing, that satisfies your inner most desire. This is not what money can buy.
To influence others, i have to set a good example. But i always spew vulgarities though not harmful but its wrong. I must admit that there are many other people who may not be christians, but have set a good example. This is a point that i must learn. For my mouth is used for praises and not for scolding ugly words.
it was at; 8:20 AM
Things i have done since i last blogged
1) removed my two wisdom tooth which were anything but giving me wisdom.
2) failed most of my mid year subjects and on the verge of starting a chicken rice stall
3) hacked my ipod and restored it cause the thrill was gone
4) started going back for cell
5) started realising that life is not so bad after my pastor "redeemed" me with his sermon
it was at; 3:43 AM
