the word
The last blog entry was about what i experienced for the last month, a month of struggles and hardship. A month where i denied and i pushed away my true emotions and problems. I wanted to stand like a strong firm tree, not to be swayed by the torrential wind and to survive the storms alone. Alone i stood, strong and mighty, but the rain poured and the wind howled. I began to fall. The problems are just too big for me, but it was never big if i handled it with God. I called and asked my friends, but none would and could help. " Only you can solve it" they said. I prayed and God came. He showed me the solution. The stress that i have been under, He showed me how to not take it so seriously. Not to pressure myself, and that it is normal to feel uncomfortable. All this suffering and torment, Sometimes you just feel like a fish that is placed on the soil, its not your home. Like this fish, my home is not on earth, but in the heavens above. Hence it is certain that i fail, that i feel unwanted, that i feel pain, this is not home. My calling is up there, with God. Thanks for showing me the way God, i understand so much better now.
it was at; 4:07 AM
