tuesday
Today i had to literally dig myself out of the bed in the morning. Was like so sleepy and had to keep giving myself this surges of motivation to sit up and get out. Managed to do physics today, so the day was not too wasted, though i have to continue later with maths. This saturday i am going to try out this new church called ' hope church'. Partly due to the fact that i need a new form of worship and sort of like stir up my passion to worship. the passion sorts of gets killed every sunday when i go to church and the worship is like singing this traditional chinese songs in which are in old chinese. Some words i cannot even read and the tune is somewhat the same. I know its not in the music that i must worship, but its hard to stay on something that does not really make me feel into it. What is the point of singing a song which i cannot read and understand. Its not that my current church is lousy or it sucks, its just that i need this change.
I do agree that when it comes to sermons, the marvels of chinese language is that it comes as very sincere and very warm to me, partly because its my mother tongue. Sermons in English just do not really have the same effect as chinese sermons, chinese sermons make me think more deeply into it. I guess i do learn more in chinese service, if only they could make the worship interesting .
I am a young man living in a generation where music of pop genres greatly interest me and if i am confined to the singing of just traditional songs in church, i am afraid i lack the drive. The hard to read chinese words do not help at all in the singing of the song, sometimes i find myself just humming the tune without knowing what it means. this is just pointless in worshipping, i find that if i have to worship, i hav to know what i sing so i can sing it with my heart.
I hope that Jesus paves my way in front of me that i will continue to sing and praise him forever
it was at; 7:35 AM
