Love transends all
Yes i have not been blogging lately, maybe it was due to the exams i was facing or just pure laziness.
Although i have not been blogging, i have been reading other peoples blogs.
I used to use blogging as a way to vent my frustrations when i was at the pinnacle of throwing myself off the building. It was just a pure moment of bliss when i read the hateful things i have wrote in matters of injustice in life. I thought that by letting others know my very strong views and takes about those matters, i would change something. It might be their thinking of that person or event. I just enjoyed being in control when i blog about other people. I knew that by impersonating the names i would get away scott free without trouble from the authorities. But all this were just temporal. Everytime i visit my blog, i would see "Jesus, king of this life, this heart" and my postings which were just pure lousy at being a living testimony for christ. I choose to ignore it as i thought it was just a skin, something that was a facade. But thank God that gradually i began to sense the wrong in posting such devious things and cracking jokes out of such crude humour. I thought to myself, is Jesus really the king of My heart? this was really hard for me.
It was then that i chanced upon this verse, that says " This commandment we have from him; whoever loves God must also love his brother." 1Jn 4:21
Have i been loving my brothers by speaking of such evil about them? i would love to say yes, but sadly i shook my head. I had not shown the love that Jesus had shown for me, and i still say that i am a christian.
For what is a christian if he has no love for his neighbours and enemies?
I would rather not be a christian if i had no love for others.
I had no acceptance for others and was unwilling to just love others for who they are, i tend to love the good side of people and despise the bad.
Was this what Jesus had shown for me?
No
He loved me when i was a sinner and through this i could find the strength to love others unconditionally.
"we love because he(God) first loved us" 1jn 4:19
Yes we must all learn to love and accept one another.
because " anyone who does not love.does not know God" 1jn4:8
Thus love your others as you love yourself
it was at; 10:55 PM
WOahs todays physics was like....wtf? so many questions and not easy. looking forward to tomorrows maths then chinese on monday and then....end of mid years! hopefully can pass 2h2 and 1h1 and gp. I wan to get promoted!
it was at; 2:07 AM
WOW! tremendous feeling of warmth and fellowship was experienced last night after i took a nap from my camp. I took a leap of faith by investing 4 days into church camp though next week is my MId years and God rewarded me FULLY! I finally found old friends and pulled the distance between my church friends! THe feeling of fellowship and the LOVE is just GREAT! I wanted to change church before this camp cause i did not LIKE the WORSHIP. but it is only after this camp that i know that my LOVE is with BBPC! though i LIKE the worship over at HOPE but my LOVE still remains with BBPC! i have really grown through all the numerous opportunities PROVIDED by 1723! I was given the role of group LEADER! it was not easy to lead a group of brothers and sisters who were more EXPERIENCED than me. i was given the knowledge of the PROBLEMS faced by the church and I feel INDEBTED to HELP! I have been cultivated and harvested in BBPC, and by no reason should i NOT help them BACK! I LOVE my CHURCH and my FRIENDS and of course JESUS who SAVED me! I shall continue in 1723 to GROW in FAITH with GOD!
it was at; 8:43 PM
Today was a really mudane day, until i went for a jog. I ran from my house up to railmall then to ford factory then bukit batok nature reserve and back passing by all the condos. That was not the interesting and really miraculous part. As u can see i have to pass by quite a few traffic lights as i run this path. Theres this traffic light before reaching ford factory directly like down the hill from all the " hume 1,2 ..." I was running and i saw that the light was red, i didnt really see carefully and looked at the on coming cars if there was any. I saw this blue comfort taxi zooming downhill and i was like, its red light, it should stop. With my Mp3 player playing eminem's guess who's back playing at the background, i could feel my feet wanting to move to the beat. However as i tried to cross the road, my legs just did not cooperate and kept jogging on the spot! i was like hey what the... then the taxi brushed past me at high speed. It was then that i realise that the red light was not for the taxi, it was a red MAN! If i continued to run without stopping right there, i wont even be blogging now. I did not really notice this until after my run when i was doing my stretching.
I looked back and like was really wowed! This may sound really werid but i know that Jesus was there pulling me back, holding my legs from running forward. There was no reason why i could not run on, i was not tired, i was not weak and i just started my run. Jesus saved me today and for that i am thankful to have an all knowing and powerful God. I used to doubt miracles would happen in today's context like turning water into wine and stone into bread. But if not for this miracle that happened today, i would not have lived.
Jesus saved my soul and he will save yours too, if you believe
it was at; 7:50 AM
Today i had to literally dig myself out of the bed in the morning. Was like so sleepy and had to keep giving myself this surges of motivation to sit up and get out. Managed to do physics today, so the day was not too wasted, though i have to continue later with maths. This saturday i am going to try out this new church called ' hope church'. Partly due to the fact that i need a new form of worship and sort of like stir up my passion to worship. the passion sorts of gets killed every sunday when i go to church and the worship is like singing this traditional chinese songs in which are in old chinese. Some words i cannot even read and the tune is somewhat the same. I know its not in the music that i must worship, but its hard to stay on something that does not really make me feel into it. What is the point of singing a song which i cannot read and understand. Its not that my current church is lousy or it sucks, its just that i need this change.
I do agree that when it comes to sermons, the marvels of chinese language is that it comes as very sincere and very warm to me, partly because its my mother tongue. Sermons in English just do not really have the same effect as chinese sermons, chinese sermons make me think more deeply into it. I guess i do learn more in chinese service, if only they could make the worship interesting .
I am a young man living in a generation where music of pop genres greatly interest me and if i am confined to the singing of just traditional songs in church, i am afraid i lack the drive. The hard to read chinese words do not help at all in the singing of the song, sometimes i find myself just humming the tune without knowing what it means. this is just pointless in worshipping, i find that if i have to worship, i hav to know what i sing so i can sing it with my heart.
I hope that Jesus paves my way in front of me that i will continue to sing and praise him forever
it was at; 7:35 AM
Gosh went for gp today and i failed my compre test! heng my essay got quite high so it sorta like counter balance the shitty compre. The compre wa piang! my summary cock up la, dunno who tell me the language not important, its the points that counts. Then i dumb dumb go and try, never change the words then my gp teacher placed like sporadic "L" throughout my summary. L means lifted and which is a subset of language, not loser or lame -.-'. Cause of that, i was not awarded any marks for the 15 points that i had which i did not rephrase. Damnit next time cannot anyhow listen to other ppl.
Go home tt time si bei suay, rain so heavily. Then i only got one umbrella, but shu wei on the bus with me. I ask him if he wan to share anot, but he very kind say dun need. I feel very bad and guilty la. I alighted from the bus le, walking home then suddenly see Jianmin aka machine at the bus stop. I was like wtf? he never go Gp lesson why he need to go school. Later then he tell me is he go and do PW. then also suay take bus rain. So also quite heng never share umbrella with shu wei, if not 3 ppl how to share one umbrella. Got one small boy dun hav umbrella, so he gung ho chiong home. Heng he never fall down, if not wet , bleed and pain.
This week hav to chiong le, if not next week got church camp no time to prepare for mid years. Kanna sai i still blogging here, somemore in singlish. Kao i need to go do work man. WORK WORK!
it was at; 7:26 AM
