everyday
Today i attended sunday service. It was really great, i learnt that to walk with Jesus, one must have the courage to walk with him first. He gave us an example of how one pastor would follow you around for 10 days. After 10 days you would know his bad habits and his likings and stuff you didnt know before. So are we that brave to have Jesus walk beside us?
we always think of God as high and almighty, but is he really that far? For he stays in our hearts. There was this very insightful example he provided too. He said that at his church( he was a guest speaker) there was this pastor who addressed God as Ba*ba*(chinese) which is father. I have never thought of it that way that we can address him as Ba* ba*. I have always addressed Him as Jesus, or God. Never ba* ba*. Maybe because the chinese way of calling him father ( ba* ba*) draws us closer to him. For ba* ba* is looked upon as the one whom have watched you grow up and gave you life. How ever similar to our Lord, it has never struck me that i could call him Ba* ba*. Guess every sunday really renews me and teaches me something.
I was very delighted to have my friend Lit hien during service. He has not been attending the adult service for a number of times and i was kinda dissapointed. But today he did not dissapoint. I thank God for bringing him back to our midst.
Everyday i have this goal for myself, it is to bring two of my classmates to Christ. They made me feel fortunate and blessed and i badly want to share this good news with them. Pray that Jesus would heal them and touch their hearts. I also pray everyday to be more on Fire for Jesus. I have not been very passionate about spreading the gospel in class lately. Maybe its due to the fact that everyone is still new and its not exactly the best time to spread the gospel. I fear rejection and i fear that i might not be eloquent enough to convey the message. I fear that my life might not be glorifying His name. I have many fears. Pray that i will have strength to overcome them.
it was at; 6:19 AM
Nowadays when i talk to my classmates around me, i find that i am a very fortunate child. Broken families, financial problems, transport headaches and hungar pangs i have none of this. Everyday i have my dad to bring me to school and talk to me, my mom who welcomes me when i come home. Sometimes i just take all of this for granted, like its supposed to be,when its not. I complain when dinner is not warm, i shout when i am reminded, i guess i need to change.
I need to change and be reminded that what i have may not last forever. I need to learn to help those that are in need. I need to learn not to judge, for i will be judged that way. I need to be compassionate, for i may need pity and compassion one day. lastly i need to learn to forgiven, as i have been forgiven.
Today i skipped choir practice, i have no excuses, i am pushed. Out of SYF. Should i rejoice? Or should i cry? Injustice? or just pure lack of talent. I agree with the latter. I would pull the choir team down. Prevent them from gunning that GOLD. Dissapointing them with my weakness. Sigh i guess life still goes on.
it was at; 6:02 AM
Today was the schools annual sports day, as usual it was filled with adrenaline pumping boys and girls. I got silver for my shot put event but i didnt do well enough for my javelin to be even qualified. Guess JC standard is much higher. On monday i went for AJC's choir performance at the esplanade(durain) and it was mighty good. 15 dollars for a peformance that lasted around 2 and a half hours with perfect pitching on everysong and actions that were sychronised so well you would have thought they were in uniform groups. I have a voice check coming up on friday and i am supposed to perfect the SYF set piece which is song without words. Yes literally song without words, so its just pure pitching. That is quite a feat for me to perform considering that i only used my voice to shout in npcc last time. O ya today my friend lit hien( who now wants to be known as Alan) did his campaign speech for council. I guess it was pretty much ok except that leotard and i were fliming him, which gave him unwanted stress hahas. Hope i can do well in my voice check on friday and that choir can cut us J1's some slack. Its only the second month into choir!
it was at; 7:32 AM
this week was full of ups and downs. Had alot of stress since monday, after chemistry test which totally destroyed my morale for that day. i could not sleep well and i kept thinking of how concert would be on saturday and that i may not be up to standard. and i had two more test coming up. But Jesus gave me strength to pull through. He told me to let go, let it go onto Him and He will carry it for me. He did carry it for me and i survived this really stressful week. I was so stressed on monday night that i had a fever, so had to take MC. But although i had many rocks of obstacles thrown at me, i still consider myself blessed.I still can sing and i still can go to school, today i had diarrea, i dunno whats wrong but it was just really bad. but i have learnt to let go and to just give myself some slack time. no more late nights in school after choir concert tomorrow!
it was at; 6:44 AM
Yesterday was my grandmothers 80th birthday! celebrated it at safra mt faber as it was handicap friendly. Almost all of our extended family came to celebrate with my Ah ma. We sang and danced for her. She was really estatic and happy. On the way home i sang her two songs i learnt in church and she said i sang really well. I seldom sing for other people but as it was for my beloved ah ma, i sang my best. At first it was really awkward in the car as it was silent and there was this deadly silence. But i kept thinking that if i didnt sing now for her, will there be a next time? So i started by telling her i joined choir then singing the songs for her. Thank God that my Ah ma is saved by salvation and this really makes me very happy.
Everytime i think about how she showed me strengths that really like tells me" wow if she can do that, why cant i?" My ah ma is half paralyzed but she still does everything with ease. through my experiences with my ah ma, i am made stronger in character. I hope my Ah ma lives long enough to see me start a family, and for me to make her smile again.
it was at; 7:58 AM
