WOW
I just had squash training today, people seem better now, the fat dude didnt turn up. my head hurts like shit due to lack of sleep but still i will blog.
Yesterday while i was on msn, my friend in secondary school asked me which church i was from, and then he asked if i could bring him there. This is like a big wow to me, all this years i have been trying desperately to invite people to church and they all turn me down with excuses, now i have my friend who willingly wants to come to church, Praise the Lord for that. After he told me that i was really excited, this was what i have been praying for all this years, the salvation of my friends and now its answered. I was really happy and estatic and it was this feeling that i have never felt before, a sense of happiness and joy and fullfillment. He told me that he needed help in his life and his school was a mission school, thats how he came to know Jesus. I guess when you are down in life, you need someone to turn to, some one who will always be there and never abandon you, that someone is Jesus.
I am not just speaking empty words, but i speak from life experiences. Last time i was never really a true christian, i was always trying to poke fun of people, laughing at them, never really living like a christian. But Jesus never forsake me because of that, he was still there, and he renewed my faith. Every week when i have troubles, i look for help, but found none. Let me quote an example, I just received the news that my grandmother is very ill and cannot even get up from her bed. Sure i can tell my friends and they can console me but there is this void that i still cannot fill, this sure panic and worriedness that overwhelms me each time i think of my grandmother. She was not just any grandmother, she was the only one who really let me see how strong a person can be, though disabled. I remember the time when i was in primary school, as my parents had to work, i would always go to my granny's house after school. It was like very routine but i always tried to make the best of everyday, i tried to buy her food, but she would just smile and say that i needed it more. there was this once i was really into skipping, as my granny was taken cared of by my maid, i would ask the both of them to help me toss the skipping rope round and round so i could jump to my hearts content. My granny is half paralyzed and though so, she used her only good hand and swung the rope, i could see it was really hard for her but she still swung and smiled at me. I guess now when i fondly recollect the memories, i find it hard not to tear.
Now shes not well and i really needed help, i was looking for answers to this very problem, i knew i was no doctor so i could not really help her, but thats when i knew i had Jesus
So i prayed for her with all my heart and i smsed my church mates to pray for her too.
Never did i know that my church mate actually called me to ask! How wonderful is that! i was expecting them to just pray for my ah ma but she actually called me and ask in concern. I was really touched and its things like that that my faith is renewed endlessly.
Today on the way home, the bus was quite packed and i was thinking to myself that what can make my day is me giving up my seat to someone who needs it more. I was just thinking that thought and listening to my music, then at the 3rd bus stop, there was this elderly that needed a seat, and i gave it to her. In my heart was this sense of happiness that can never be expressed. You will know that when u help someone. So through this i find Jesus very real in my life and thats why i live for him, he helped with all his heart and never expected anything in return, through his examples am i able to follow and now i know why he never expected anything in return, cause what you receive from helping is more than enough. Thus i wish that you could too experience this and that whenever a helping hand is needed, please extend yours
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