Camp
Sad, my church camp just ended. It was so much fun. My group got first too out of the six groups, we didnt really score in everything but my group had teamwork so we managed to come in first. There were many useful things that i have learnt in church camp. Although i did not go for the second day cause of prom and graduation, i heard that it was really fun that day.
I want to share my experience today at breakthrough halfway house. It is a place where the people who are on drugs want to kick the habit and it is also a place where they get to know about Jesus. I was looking at the powerpoint slides they prepared and i found this particularly touching sentence, it was "it was not drugs or will that will lead them to freedom, it is through Jesus" i find it really real to me as i know that sometimes man cannot achieve what God can. All those people at the halfway house were all either heavily tatooed or really big in size. I really can see the difference in them now, they were so passionate for Christ. I guess when you are really down and out, Jesus can save you. I am grateful that i had this chance to see all this people who have turned over a new leaf and let Jesus guide them. I hope that one day i can reach out to all those who are forsaken by the world and let them know that there is light at the end of the tunnel,and the light is Jesus.
Now that i am sec 4 and i have been in church for many years, i found that i have changed and now i am willing to lay my life for Jesus and his cause. Last time when my parents brought me to church, i would always bring a newspaper to read before church started and not really mix around with the people there. They were friendly but i just did not want to mix with them. Somehow i prefered to be alone. When it was time to sing, i would just mumble through the words as since young, i see my friends all singing very softly and reluctantly so when i go to church, it seemed normal not to sing and just go there to pass time. But slowly over the years, i can feel the change happening in me. I was really down when i was in sec 3 as my results was not very good. I really started to look for alternatives, tuition did me no good as it did not seem to produce results. My morale was really low and i had no focus in life, i blamed myself for entering triple science and asked myself why i didnt take double. Everything seemed wrong to me and songs like Shut up in simple plan seemed really true when my mom nags at me. I started to hate life.
But then every sunday when i go to church, i will see the encouraging faces and everyone seemed to be behind me in this battle. Slowly i began to remember and sing the bible verses louder as there was nothing to lose now since i was such a failure. Then the change occured, one day i sang until the verse, Jesus can change your life and he can change your mood. I was really determined to try Jesus and let him enter into my heart. Soon i began to gain confidence and with that Jesus brought me better results and a focus in life. Sec 4 was like the change of good events was so fast, my A maths used to be really shitty but with Jesus guiding me, i could see the vast improvement in my work. I no longer hate maths and my face even began to clear up. Jesus can really change your life if you have faith. Every sunday is the day that i look forward to the most, it is the day that i can sing my praises loudly and not be ashamed of my past as Jesus has helped me through the toughest times. I read bible verses with flair and confidence and hope that it can too change someone's life, just like it has changed mine.
I hope that everyone i know can learn to know about Jesus and he can really change your life, just like he has to mine.
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Today was the start of the PAE exercise to the junior colleage. As my schools prelim was so damn bloody "easy", i think i am one of the lucky few that could make it to JC.
But firstly i want to talk about my experience that day on tuesday, it was a PAE exercise so i went to school to collect my PAE stuff and went home. However things were not so simple, miss toot was there to make my sunny cheery day hell again. Miss toot wants 10 of each class of her history students to attend the school reunion. Since no one in the right mind wanted to go, it was decided by her that we should all spilt up the 400 dollar table by our class of 19. So it works out to be 25 per person although that is like 475, suppose the 75 goes to some mysterious black hole. As i was in my right frame of mind, i didnt want to give away my 25 bucks for something that is held in the soon-to-be-bombed/knocked/removed/demolished-school quadrangle. Firstly the venue issnt even worth 1 dollar, let alone 40 per person. imagine sitting on plastic grey chairs and round a makeshift table draped with dirty red linen cloth, all in the mercy of the weather and the sea-urchin like ground. And judging from what the school provided for the teacher parent meeting( in case u didnt noe it was kong guan goodies) and what they fed us once( sweet potato), you can see why i didnt want to part with the money.
However, miss toot cornered and threated not to give us back our form A(which is very imp to choose yr jc as it contains yr password) unless we paid the money. Blackmail. She said that and all the other teachers had done alot for us and now it was time to PAYBACK!!!! like some mafia. I had a hard time relating that to personal experiences, but since it was for the sake of my FORM A, i had to give the money(which was borrowed from my pals). Which i think was not right, but there she was whining and complaining and saying that she was greatly dissapointed with us for not cooperating in giving the money. Well in case you didnt noe, she still owes us a hell lot of unmarked testpapers. Unfair it seems but well, this is miss toot. And her all so cooperative sec 5's have actually paid the money it seems, well they are sec 5's, who knows where they got the money.
Anyways injustice seems to rule the world again, but its surprising that i should see it happen in school, and by a supposed to be morally upright teacher. I am just not very happy that she said that we should be obliged to pay back to them, and worse still, its decided by money. I guess money can buy you anything sometimes. I feel that if i appreciated what the teachers gave and taught me, i should to my own accord give back to the teacher in a way i see apt. Not money and blackmail. This will just carve a bad impression of miss toot on me forever like the 10 commandments carved in stone. well this experience has really taught me a lot of No-Nos.
I have alot to say about that experience but i guess i will stop, cause it just makes me tired of all this crap that people do nowadays.
Prom night is coming and i still have no idea why people are rushing to get blazers. geez , o by the way prom night does not mean promotion, though i also dunno what it stands for but its not that,maybe it is, i might be wrong. Anyways all my classmates are like asking me if i am getting any blazers for that day, man i must be either 1) too rich 2) too free 3) too dumb to get blazer just for that one night. Might as well ask me if i will wear a bowtie and hold a tray with wine. geez nowadays just because someone wears something, everyother guy will want to follow. I dont want to blow a few hundred dollars just on some night to impress, well i guess its a pride thing for some.
Graduation will be in the morning, same day as prom night. Mr black bun told us to wear formal clothes for boys and all the do's and dont's, but for girls, he just said dress like a woman and wear shoes with the strappy thing, this just shows how "deep" his vocab is. So i have to dress like a really smart ass just to walk up the creaky stage and received the cert from my principal who will act like she really knows me. Man its just sch graduation man, why all the hassle, email is available, why don't just email the freakin cert over. o wells world is changing for the better.
I hope i can get into A Jc in my choice, chao!
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what the toot. Todays emaths was not as i expected. Harder then most of my o lvl papers,but still i think i can get higher then b3. WA TODAYS Social studies. All the topics that my teacher spotted didnt even freaking come out. I did my mind map thingy for the first time for good goverance and SID and both didnt freaking come out. I am so pissed, partly at myself but mostly at miss toot. Wells its easy to blame someone and slack behind, so thats me.
When i heard the statement" u can now start" my heart was thumping like an untamed animal, i quickly flipped to the back page. TOOT was the first word when i didnt see both goverance and SID. Instead it was merger and NI and education and healthcare. Man wtf merger was always not my strong topic, needless to say education and healtcare was not even in my aresenal of topics. So sadly i had to do the only thing i could manage.NI. Souce based was pretty ok cept for the fact that you have to write so bloody alot for everything, i bet if it was much easier i would have finished my paper. Yes yes i didnt finish my damn NI qn . Thats 13 marks down the drain but hopefully it will all balance out.
Maths is always ok until you hear somebody that says something that disagrees with what you have wrote. Like for example my Ans was 5, then within earshot range u hear people saying its ten and their all so correct reasons, and you are like o crap thats 1 mark or 2 mark gone. Continue this cycle till everyone you know is out of sight and you feel like the lousiest person that maths had ever produced.
Wed is my english paper, hope the narrative topic allows me to express my fluent english writing skills hahas. Speaking of English, mrs whale has not posted anything up on my schools ask and learn portal,which she promised to.Instead what i saw as the latest topic was Basket ball training for girls. Sometimes i wish we all had more efficient teachers like what i studied in my Social studies. Social studies have taught me that efficient civil service consist meritocracy and openness and honesty. Sadly i cannot proudly boast that my school practises that.
Take Meritocracy for example, it says that it is a system that rewards hard work and talent. Well half or maybe all of my teachers do not give us back the assignments on time, one had recently told us that he didnt mark our test paper that we did(refer to previous post on fossiled assignment). Well according to meritocracy, this civil servants should be warned and if they do not improve, should be squatting at the road side eating dirt. But no? i still see them walking proudly as if they taught us well. This links back to my point on my teacher not putting up the english notes despite her promising us. Its only one day away from english O lvl mind you.
What about openess? does my school score in that?sadly its 1 to inefficient teachers and 0 to openess. An example will be the time when miss toot explained to us a source based cartoon on storks. As you know the cartoon can be interpreted in different ways, as long as its reasonable. Miss toot encouraged students to spar with her, verbally of course. So we did, and we told her our stand of that cartoon, this will bring out the value of openess. Did she accept our view point ? no! she called us idiots and "Si Gin Nas"(people that deserve to die) and she said that because we didnt think simply like the sec 5's or like her, we got our inference wrong. Now this is a big cross on the value of openness, openness means that the civil servants should take in feedback and improve. Todays social studies paper didnt even come out any of the topics she spotted,although i cannot say its right to spot, she let us down. So who is the "SI GIN NA"? you be the judge.
Lastly its honesty, wow this is the only value that i can say that is of passable standard, mostly due to teachers always catching people who cheats in exam. Honestly , i dont think i need to explain much. But i still have not gotten any examples of dishonest teachers.....wait...somethings coming..AHA! During recess, there is this particular CIVICS AND MORAL EDUCATION TEACHER (IN BOLD BOLD) that actually cuts the queue to the store right in front of his many students. Now i am not sure if that is an act of selflessness that the teacher is testing the food for posioning but it sure issnt honesty. How do they pick Civics and moral education teachers i wonder? the teachers who do not practice them? So sadly to say, my school has an ineffient bunch of teachers who do not live up to the textbooks good example. Well i am only one boy in this sea of students so do not take me seriously.
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ALL WHO STILL HAVE DIGIMONS IN WORKING CONDITION PLEASE CONTACT ME ASAP. OFFERING TO BUY THEM! NOT DIGIVICE
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